Tony mon ami...

Hey Tony short one here
until later tonight
my daughter is coming to get me
she's taking me to the movies
hope she will pick a film in English
and not the French version of one
We saw TAKEN and SLUMDOG in original English version!
But sometime she goes for the fucking French version
although she now speaks English quite good
from going out with English Canadian or American guys

so to the movies tonight
I love that shit with Virginie
makes me feel good

thanks for the books you will try to send me
but Tony do what you can
I will send you good stuff believe me

and it pleases me to do so


I smoked a joint with Ginsberg and Corso
did not do H with Burroughs
I was not on it at the time
was mostly into booze and pot
but booze a lot
my Jim Morrison period
got fat on beer and Jack D

yeah my psy is so good looking
Laurie Galfand
nice name
little black boots
and black jeans
Levy's I think
I hope
and flower power top
and short hair
& although I am high on methadone
she gives me a....hard on!
(it rimes...)

but my case is hopeless
all I need is a break from life
no teaching for a while
just my regular life
«little things»
title of Jeffrey Brown's book
that I read
while reading
«Songs from the Shooting Gallery»
man what a stretch
opposite poles
but then again
it works
look into his stuff may be on Google
it is worth it...

AND I AM BACK FROM THE MOVIE

What a stupid film
FAST AND FURIOUS:
cars chicks mex-rap
so stupid it ain't even funny


but then again

anyway Virginie and I laughed
all the way to the end...

funny thing happen tonight
while we were taking our seats
a song was playing
DRINKING IN LA
that I use to listen a lot

and love as much

while I was on H a few years back
and Virginie tells me it is Bran Van 3000
and these guys are huge fans of me
they asked me last summer
to join them in Quebec City
for one of my song that they love
they were playing in front of 100,000 people
but I was 4 hours from there
a member of a jury for a song festival
and I could not make it
and tonight learning that there song
was part of my H ride
made me so sad and mad at myself
to have missed that encounter on stage
jesus christ!!!!
but I could not make it
maybe I could have thinking back
you see Tony
I do not want to brag
but I am a legend here
and in a lot of places in the world
most often underground
but isn’t it the best place to be a legend
they are the one the last and outlast all others
I told you about Beck
that guy talked about me on TV
saying how much he liked my stuff
and Jello Biafra
and here in Quebec
all the new bands and artists
since the last 15 years
have been influenced by my poetry songs and poems
and this does not mean anything anymore
for the time being at least
the methadone makes everything worthless
and do not know if it does that to all who are on it
you mentioned that program
where you can go and shoot H or morphine
there was one like that here last year
now it is under evaluation
but it was worst then the methadone
you had to go thru all kind of bulshit
and were probably under police surveillance

you are right about your friend
saying that the meeting with the dealer was special
I miss that sometimes
but not the pain of sickness
and I for a while

knew the dealer

and still know him

(I see him at Starbuck 2-3 times a week like I told you)

he can deliver here at my door

which is very unique for H
you the user have to run
but this dealer makes home delivery
like Domino Pizza under 20 minutes!
but if he takes more then the 20 minutes
he doesn't give it to you for free!!!! ha ha!



So that’s it for now

Take good care



I like our little intense exchange

I am enjoying it a lot

And learning from it

Plus it gives me the urge to write

I am getting poems out

Of my 5 laptops (yeas 5!)

And 3 desk computer

Well it is a lot

But I also have 50 pair of cowboy boots

And 14 cars 4 bikes

And 20 guitars and 5,000 books

And so many cds and dvds

What a fucking Buddhist I make

The Dalai Lama would puke on his sandals man!

But I practice a kind of special Buddhism

The Sokka Gakaï

Based on the realisation of your desires

Instead of renouncing

You reach for your desires

And as outrageous as they might be

You tend to eliminate the stupid one

And get to keep the good one

In my case I am still in the «most have everything» right now and fast!

But then again I put in practice the principles

Trying to be a good person and helping others

And having no destructive thought no violence etc



Anyway just writing to you and reading you

Makes me feel like I should publish a book of poetry

All I have to do is look into my computers

And into my note books

(I use the Moleskin one… used by the writers in the fifties…)

It is all-mythic I know

But hell it keeps me going…



Best of



Xx


Francoeur

Allo tony

Hi again Tony

was reading the poem
«The cure is the curse»
how fucking right it is!

I am going to photocopy it
and bring it to the Jewish General Hospital
were I am registered for my methadone program
they are very good people
the first methadone clinic in Montreal
but they don't know shit about drugs
all they know is the protocol treatment
that is to say
methadone is the ultimate solution
I wish I could put them all on methadone
take my 165mm and make a fruit punch for Easter!

Anyway to go back to the reflex ion on H
I do thing it is the best drug on earth
(beside what I already have expressed
about LSD and Cannabis...)

Burroughs did it all is life
and wrote the greatest books ever
but he was disciplined
(although not when he was in Morocco
where he was called
El Hombre Invisible!)

I think that you have to be careful
because I don't know but playing with codeine
even if it is over the counter etc
might be insidious...
well you know all about that as much as I do

If I did all drugs and alcohol in industrial quantities
heroine is the only one that I managed moderately
I was smoking one point a day
30$ Canadian
or shooting the same amount
the ideal program would be
to shoot one point in the morning
and then one point at supper time
as a matter of fact
if I could have kept my pot smoking
to that rhythm
it would have been real peace and love

anyway...
I think it is a good objective
to say to oneself
if I get to be 60
I'll do the last stretch on H
and then when you get there
you might decide otherwise...
for the best or the worst...

my greatest mistake
was to stop smack
and then again
may be if I hadn't
I wouldn’t be here talking to you
who knows

I was seeing my psy yesterday
very good looking and a bit grunge
28 I guess
and I think she fells something for me
she had like drowsy eyes
when I told her
I felt like buying a lot of H
and slowly bring down the methadone level
and bring the H in...
I was serious when I said it
but deep down inside
I knew it was just to make a statement
about the methadone bummer...

another thing Tony
when I read you dedicating words
in «Songs...»
and saw the little spoon drawing
I thought that if you do more of those
I would you call them
«doodling»
you could put some with your poems
Cohen did that in his last book
and Ginsberg maybe or Corso or Patchen
anyway others did it
it would make a great book
and a great read etc

I wish I could draw and do it

I got most of what I want to send you ready
1. Express pour l'Eden (most recent poetry book)
2. Roman d'amour (published long ago and very rare... collector's item!)
3. Chansons d'épouvante (most recent CD... 2 years ago... UNDER AUT'CHOSE)
4. Chants de l'Amérique inavouable (complete songs lyrics)
5. Neons in the Night (choice of poems, translated... both version)
6. If I can: Dans la jungle des villes (recent CD under FRANCOEUR)
7. if I CAN: «EXIT POUR NOMADES»... ROAD MOVIE based on my life and art... documentary-fiction... in California and New Mexico and Quebec etc


and I will give you expiation for each book or cd and dvd

may be I will send what is ready this week like the 5 items mentioned above
and the rest as soon as I get it ready...

well Tony
wish you the best
(come to think about it and what you said about Nico growing...
I stop doing coke when my daughter was 5
because I did not want her to see her daughter coming home after a 3-4 days binge...!)
so you are doing the right thing staying «straight» (mostly) until she's grown up...
you do not want to miss any of those next years that are the most important
then she will become a young woman and a woman
like my Virginie here
and although she is still my baby and will always be
she has her own life and lives it without us
luckily she is still staying home with us!
And I tell myself
that when she leaves
then I'll go back on H
you see
it is always postponed... always later... then I'll be to old to hit the vein!


Take care my friend


Lucien

Allo Tony mon ami...

Hi Tony,

I'm back home...

Claudine and Virginie are watching a «reality tv show» made in Quebec... it gives me some free time to be by myself...

I read Speed when I was in my 20's and if my memory is right, it was a french translation: I will try to find the book and confirm it to you...

I bought today a book that make me so happy, the new Jeffrey Brown: «Funny Misshapen body», it is so good... looks like childish cartoon, but adult all the way... This guy is not a

Will Eisner, Frank Miller, Hergé,Hugo Pratt, Paul Pope (Heavy Liquid, a must!), Moebius, Sean Phillips (Criminal, a must!), Jack Kirby etc etc... He is in the marginal, minimalist genre: with Julie Doucet, Chester Brown, Seth etc... But so sincere that you cannot do without loving his books... one of his book's title says it all: «Little things»... So tonight I am reading that and also Paul Pope: Heavy Liquid...

About H... What I think is this... I have read and have been told that once you have been addicted to heroine, or just did it for a short while, it change something in you brain chemistry and that is forever... no matter what and how long you are off the stuff... But they were also saying in the seventies that one single cap of lsd or acid was destroying you nerve cells (neurones) by the hundred of thousands... And that one single tab of ecstasy was damaging you «spine marrow» (moelle épinière)... When I decided to go back on H after more that 30 years, it was a conscienscious decision... a bold decision... I was turning 54 and my daughter was in her teenage years... also I was realising that most o f my friends were dead... Also I was smoking a lot of pot, 10-12 joints a day and wasn't getting anywhere with the stuff... no real high anymore... I was at the time fucking around with a black foxy chick... Shelley was her name... Maria Carey style but slimmer... and she was on H... so after my coke binge I would end up with her and one night I decided to do H to avoid the coke crash after 3 days without sleep... I did that on and off for 6 months without getting hook because I was never doing it more then 2 days in a row... But one day a friend of mine, from France dropped by and he had some good brown H and I started smoking it (with Shelley I was sniffing it and it tasted so bad I wanted to puke and did puke most of the times!)... so when I decided to smoke it I knew what the score was and were it would take me... mainlining for sure! But I had a normal life: money, cars, bikes,houses... etc etc I wanted to write and record... So smoking H got me back writing and recording: 5 books in 18 months and 3 cds in those 18 months plus 4 more... So I got hooked good but I was friend with a huge dealer in Montreal... I had money to secure my habit... But then we were talking of going back to France... I hadn't been there since maybe 8 years or more (because of my daughter etc)... And I did not want to be stuck with that on my back while going there ... So I did a cold turkey and after 5 days I was off but sick like a dog... so I got on the methadone program... then I slowly went off methadone, after 2 months on it... I was feeling pretty good, but with some period of feeling shitty... I should have kept going but the trip in France to promote my album was cancelled... so I was mad and went back smoking H and first thing you know I was mainlining... What I regret today and that is paradoxal is the methadone decision... I should have stayed on H because methadone is a bummer... I gained weight; do not feel much like writing etc... But were would I be if I had kept on doing H? I regret quitting H and going on methadone... but may be that is what is keeping me alive and sane... What makes me mad is that when I try H it doesn't do much... I would have to stop the methadone for 1 or 2 days then do H... And what is insane is that I see the dealer every 3-4 days at Starbuck: he comes and say allo... he doesn't push it because he knows me and respect me... but it would be so easy to buy... but the fact that I know it is money lost and all the works for a short rush to the brain... Like today I was in a funny mood... and sae a friend of mine who is using... I told him to call me tomorrow on my cell and that we would do some together... I know it is just words from my part... but it makes me feel good to just say it... So you see it is not easy... So to make a long story short: no I do not regret my decision to go back on it but yes sometime I regret it because I am stuck on methadone... so If I could go back in time may be I would stay away from methadone... I think... after having

The best drugs for the most creative and me where:

1. Acid, lsd... in my 20's
2. Pot, hash, all my life
3. Heroine... the best after having done the others that made me a better writer and artist...
I don not thing that, if I had done heroine as much as cannabis and lsd, when I was younger, I would have become what I am... because I would have felt good just doing H and nothing else... When I was doing it in my 20's I was doing it while doing all the other drugs and drinking... so I was never totally on H... shot a lot of Demerol at the time in Vancouver...

Although I miss H a lot and that I wouldn't be 20 pounds overweight and so off writing... it is better for me to be on methadone! More regular life... Now I say to myself that when Virginie will leave home, I will go back on H... sell all my books records guitars (but one or 2 and couple of books)... all that is not necessary and work hard in getting out of methadone and going back on H... another project for later... Keeps me alive maybe!

I am reading slowly «Songs from...» because I want to make the pleasure last... and I am waiting for your 2 other books from Amazon...

So Tony take care
I’ll let you know when I’ll have mailed my books and cd/dvd… or whatever I do send…

Best of
Rock-desire

Lucien

Autre lettre à Tony O'Neill!

Hi Tony

just read your e-mail
although I am sending you long e-mails
feel free Tony to answer the way you want
and when you want
especially now that your have to finish your manuscript
I consider our internet relation as friendly meaningful as any other
so do not worry if you do not feel to answer right now or by writing just a few lines
after all for the time being you are the one
who need time and space to get the work done
as far as I am concern
I am in a kind of free period
not much on the working table
although Ronald my relationist
wants me to get my lyrics ready for the Aut'Chose album
that I'll have to record this summer
and Claudine is going crazy
because I do not get all my poems together to form a book
and other project like an autobiographical scrapbook
with pictures and memorabilia etc
I am kind of lazy
the word in French is
FAIGNANT
which is not exactly lazy but creatively lazy

so again Tony don't worry about me
I'll understand if you cannot always answer on the dot
I have time now to write to you
and I enjoy doing it
whether it is to tell you what I feel about your work
or go on telling you about my life and way of seeing things

this morning I did not feel to go do my radio show
I wanted to have them re-play an old show
but since I wanted to talk about your books again
in direct relation to receiving «Songs from...»
if you have a chance listen this week-end
from 11 to noon at «cnv.ca»
I went with it for a whole segment of the show
and it is listen to by people all over the world
so it is interesting for the book visibility

this week end I will get a few things together
and mail them to you Monday
2-3 books with short explanations when in French
but you will always be able to get the drift because
I use a lot of English words and expressions
and I will send you 1 or 2 (if possible) cds
will make a copy of them if I cannot find the original releases
and there is a road-movie that I made in the states
a very important film on my life and all
EXIT POUR NOMADES (Exit for Nomads)
made all over Quebec and California and New Mexico
with a huge budget for that kind of a film
a cross between fiction and autobio
I will see if I can have a friend make a copy
and if I do not send everything Monday
it will follow in 2-3 weeks at the most

I might start to do a one hour radio-web show from my home
from 2 to 3 in the night early morning...
with a visual dimension
my Friday show will start having a visual next week or soon
so you will be able to see how much fucking weight I have to loose
10 to 15 pounds...
it is the methadone that give me trouble shit
on H I was so sharp...

like I said
when I go back teaching
I will have my students by your book(s) in translation(s)
and will also give the copy of «Songs from...»
to an English friend who will be able to talk about it
some of my Anglos poets friend
Endre Farkas
or Ken Norris (American)
or even Leonard Cohen
who lives close to me
and I see him at the bagel shop
so I'll see what comes first and what is best

Now Listen to me Tony
about your books of poetry
that you do not feel anymore
I went to the same phase
but believe me
(I am 60 now
fuck I hate that number
but it gives me a perspective on life at least...)
one day when you get older
you will come back to these books
and if you don't
the fans will force you to come back
and you will realise one thing (at least)
for the better or the worst
the work that we do in our first 10 years
is the stuff that makes us what we are
and that is what the fan or adept
go crazy for
when us we love what we are doing while we are doing it
and cannot understand that people go crazy
for our early work that we sometime find awkward weak etc
but is made history and made us make history
and there is nothing that we can do about it
THE PEOPLE GO NUT ABOUT THAT EARLY STUFF
that is why I say to you
write like a mother fucker
because the way you write now
will not last forever
and you will not be able to get back to that
even if you try to copy imitate yourself
look at Patti Smith doing again Horse
and Lour Reed Berlin
and Bowie will do Low or Hunky Dory etc
there is something and I realise that now
in the early writings that is spontaneous thru full candid free flow naive etc etc
so do not worry if you shy away from those books now
the will come back to hunt you no matter what
and you will learn to love them thru the people going nuts about it...

and that is that
from Nostradamus Francoeur
Johnny Shivers
from Quebec Love...

take good care
my best to Vanessa and Nico
the O'Neill love triangle!

Talk to you later
going to the resto
Claudine and Virginie
are waiting for me
rock desire

lucien

ps. Tony
you will notice
that there are less mistakes in this e-mail
I made it go thru the corrector
I should have done that for the others
And re-reading them without too much mistakes
And found them good enough
And so revealing
About writing (yours and mine)
And about life and all
Text drug and rock
that I dropped them
in Blogger Francoeur Aut'Chose
and in «lucienfrancoeur.com» Aut'Chose forum
just my e-mails
yours belong to you
so you see Tony you play a big role
writing to you about you and your work
make me write about me and my writing and all...

both of us are fucking winners!

l.f.

Hi Tony!

Hi Tony

just a fast one
I am going to the dentist
fucking methadone!

I know the translation is not done
but I can't wait for it to be
so Claudine can read it

ands wow wow wow
«Songs from the Shooting Gallery»
(what a title!)
is the one that I could not get
from Amazon Canada
and how fucking great it is
that it's the one you are sending me

now the rest is easy
I will order the other books
from Amazon Canada
as of right now!

Couldn’t be better...

I'll get my stuff ready to send
as soon as I receive your book
with I hope a return address
for me to use

I'll write a bit more
after the dentist

Hey I saw Faithfull yesterday
on the Letterman show
what a band she had
and what a song
and what a voice
but what a fucked up suit
jesus-christ!
she looked trapped in it

well o well...
she's a living legend
survivor of the glorious sixties
and how good looking was she
when she was Jagger's junkie girlfriend

ok for now

talk to you later

rock desire!

francoeur

Tony O'Oneill american writer and friend!

Hi Tony

just received your book!
I read half of it at Starbuck...
I am sky-high! Wow!

read the introduction
very pertinent
and sincere
and instructive

1. You definitely have some Rimbaud in there
mostly «A Season in Hell»...
and a bit of «Illuminations»
and why not: also some of the early poems, with rimes:
1- MA BOHÈME
2- AU CABARET VERT
3. LE BATEAU IVRE

2. Walt Whitman... for sure!
He was a «landscape poet» with an American identity, point of view...
He would have not done H with us but he would probably understood...
In a way you are, in those poems, whitmanesque... the inner landscaping of soul-searching poetry...
He was a realist... in that sense you (and I and some of those we like) are a heavy-metal realist... with hard-core tenderness...

3. Baudelaire...yeah for «Les Paradis artificiels»... but he was a moralist in the purest sense of the word!
and sometimes in the aggravating sense of the word! «Les Paradis artificiels» is a book against drugs...
Like «Cocaine» by Clapton and JJ Cale (who wrote the song) is against coke... or maybe I should say: of a painfully truthfulness...

4. Céline in the s sense of the straight forwardness of the writing...

5. Burroughs for sure! and I would add Corso... and that poet who wrote Nirvana Hotel / City Light Ed.
and Kerouac, prose and poems... or poms like he would say...
the last books of his poems published by Penguin... from his notebooks!
and also Mexico City Blues
and Ginsberg but with a restrained «handwriting»... less words... but very type of «reality sandwiches» poetry...

6. And so many other... but not that much to think of it... it is easy to write about drugs etc... but not that easy to let yourself be
seen has the complex human being that you are (that we all are for that matter)... but if we say that Whitman's landscape is America the Beautiful... your poetic landscape is America the Deceitful...

7. Lou Reed yeah... but also Patti Smith... and Bob Kaufman...

If like they say we can judge a novel by its first paragraph... we can judge a poem by its last strophe (verses)... And what about that one last strophe of yours:

«I just lay there
the King of Purgatory
with all of his adornments:
blown shot, 6:30am»

and:

«then we can lay down on the sidewalk
with the cigarette buts
and the gum
and the old movie stars:
just you
me
Rita Hayworth
and the California
moon»

and on and on...

What Woodard did for you in telling you he would publish you with more poems
well when I was 21
the most important poet of Québec (the «national poet»,- hate the word national
but take it in the sense of «appurtenance», «cultural populist identity»)
GASTON MIRON
told me after reading 12 of my acid poems in a dinner
that if I would bring him more he would publish me
and he was the creator and director
of LES ÉDITIONS DE L'HEXAGONE
the most established poetry publisher of Quebec
and one of the 5 most major publisher in all the francophone territories...
Some of the «has-been» poets of his
freaked out!
and said he could not publish such garbage
and he did just that...
the book was called
MINIBRIXES RÉACTÉS (made up words...)
all the poems in that book were written
either on acid or cannabis
or in between trips
and listening to 4 albums
1. 2 first Doors
2. LET IT BLEED
3. ABBEY ROAD


I'll send you at least
one book
one cd

maybe more
in I can find...

amitiés

Francoeur
(Johnny Shivers)

Letter to Tony O'Neill

Ok Tony
back home
read the story

it is a great read! Very well translated: I was scared before reading it because, for us québécois writers, those French translations were and still are, as far as «hip-beat-books» are concerned, badly and poorly and painfully done! The early translations of Kerouac, Ginsberg, Burroughs (especially!) were so depressing... How can I explain Tony: it would be like reading a translation of Céline done by a British writer instead of an American writer... tight in the ass if I may say... A very good friend of mine, Claude Pélieu (married to artist Mary Beach and a French member of the Beat Generation and a smack user till is death) was the first translator of Burroughs and it was aggravating and I told him... But now they (the French) do a better job and your story is perfectly translated... It gets bad usually when they try to match the slang... it would sound better in «Quebecois«... but the market for such translation is to limited: so better a few bugging words in French-slang to reach a wider market. A hip book that would be translated by a Quebecois writer would read better but could not make it in the French market, but a book translated even badly by a French writer will sell in Québec! So your story has the best of both world: very well translated with no ridicule French-slang, and «Notre Dame...» will sell in all the francophone territories!!! There you go! And by the way, thank god (or Buddha) Burroughs is being or has been translated again and it is a good read! What is hard to match in the translation of American avant-garde books, is the slang: french-québécois is closer to the American idiomatic slang than «french argot»! But we do not have the market for such hip books...

Re-reading my precedent email, I noticed a lot of typing mistakes...hope it did not give y our to much trouble Tony! And by the way I thought it was touching to think of you feeding your daughter: brought back souvenirs here... As long as you can kiss the little feet of your daughter, you are safe... When you will have to stop doing it: watch out! be aware... she will be close to adolescence... and then you have to be on your toes (how do we say: «no pun intended»)! They go through their teenage years so early these days... It starts at 12... Surely due to the cell phone, Internet, reality TV etc etc and having a single daughter is very special... in all the meanings of the word! If you want to have an idea of what my little Virginia whose feet I was tenderly kissing turn out to become, type her name on Google or Facebook... Until 13, she was grunge, roots, and then... foxy Virginie, in love with a Latino rapper and delinquent! Ti stay close to Virginie, I got myself involve with her Urbano, got him in the studio recording is raps on music played by my musicians and took him on the road with me were he came on the stage at the end and did after letting him do his thing with one song we would do a rap number together and I got him some airplay on the radio! After 4 years of that relation, Virginie dumped him and came back to be our little baby at 18! And listen to this: We have 10,000 books in the house but she doesn't read (except when I find her a disturbing life bio about teenagers in distress or a young woman in hell bound skid...) Tony, You are having the best years now with you daughter... hold on to it! Think of it, how old is she ?... under 6? 5?

Like I said, and surely repeating myself: can't wait to receive the «parcel» you are sending me, and can't wait to read you upcoming novel... When you say that you find it hard to get the critic attention or something like that... Shit there are so many books being released every week (not to mention all the cds now that we can record on a laptop!)... How can one draw attention... but I think that your are doing well: man I found your book at Urban Outfitter, a hip-cool clothing store downtown Montreal! You are thus far you are one of the hot avant-garde elected selected few! They had on the shelf both colors cover... I choose the yellow one although red coca-cola is my color! But the yellow cover was the first one that caught my eyes!

In you email you mention 2-3 writers that I am going to look into! I read all Bukowski... Wow! I just re-read all Kerouac... You know, Tony, talking of not being noticed as much as we wishes, well I find it discussing to not find Kerouac in some major scalar anthology! Jesus-Christ the man changed totally the contemporary literature! And some of those university assholes do not find him worth being in their anthology... I my dreams I spit HIV saliva in their ignorant eyes! Kerouac man! Burroughs, Ginsberg, Corso were found of him to the point of saying that he was the mastermind of all the beat and modern literature! So we have ourselves a long way to go... Myself, I got it made in Québec being studied in all school levels... but although I have published in France, and made my mark in the avant-garde, I have still a lot of work to do... and time is running out... I am healthy but I am sixty... ( those Beatles lyrics come to mind...)

You are so right (right?) when you say that the intelligentsia only take notice of «reality books)... but they fade away fast... and the type of writing that you do will stay! All you need is keep at it... Man look at Patricia Highsmith, she was not recognised in her own country until after 40 years of publishing best sellers... Then if you would get a bestseller you would be comfortable money wise but under so much press ion by the business to come up with a follow up that would sell as much or more!

Sorry for again writing so much... But I know one thing for sure Tony: do it while you feel it! Because nothing last! My appreciation of you work and feeling toward you personally as much as professionally will last... but the «heart pouring writing» will not last... We will go on with life individually... but we will have at least something to show in demonstration of what we are and feel for each other work and life trajectory... I took a chance sending you an email and here we are sharing like old friends...

I now have to go drive my daughter downtown Mtl, - I bought her a Jeep Liberty but daddy has to still drive her... I prefer that because it is Saturday and Saturday night tends to be a big night... Better not being stuck with a vehicle parked somewhere and the temptation to drive it high... Last year Virginie had a very bad accident: she wrecked bumper to bumper the Mustang GT that I had given her for her 18 birthdays: when I saw the car, I started shaking... I could she come out of it without a scratch... plus the fact that she was under the ... And the cups knew me and let her go without a test... When I saw the movie «Taken» 2 week ago, it shooked me to my soul... Go see it Tony but do not bring your wife: she will lock you d daughter in her room and will not let her out of her sight! But what a great movie!

Take care Tony
give my best to your wife and daughter

(I mentioned reading your book on Twitter, Facebook, Myspace, Blogger, etc... might not mean much but I felt like doing it...)

les gitans reviennent toujours
sur les lieux de leurs amours

Francoeur xx
(I should re-read myself for mistakes, grammage... but to lazy!